Embracing Your Body As Is – How I Discovered Confidence In Swimsuit Shopping

Last year of my twenties; what a strange thing to come to terms with. Telling people that I am 29 feels so… wrong? Surreal? It comes with all sorts of emotions, fear of what is to come and constantly reassessing whether I am where I am “supposed” to be in life yet feeling a little more confident in general. It’s confusing stuff.

I never really believed people when they said confidence gets easier when you get older but every day it gets a tiny bit more clear. For one, Β I started swimsuit shopping this month. We are heading to Mexico for our wedding here in April, and I needed something I would feel good in. I don’t enjoy swimsuit shopping, normally.

I would always be stuck on having this idea that I should be walking in around in a bikini, because otherwise I have just given up.

After the 5th little bikini that I squished my body into, I finally had enough. Why am I torturing myself and forcing my body into something that just isn’t working for me.

Why should I have to change my body just to suit it? This needs to work for the body I have, not the body that the media, or the younger me, thinks I “should” have.

It was a realization that hit me all of a sudden. What am I doing? I don’t need this. I need things that make me feel so good, right here in this moment. Right now.

And why the hell can’t I have that? Because I never believed that I could.

I wasn’t “allowed” to embrace it.

It was expected to always want the body I was told I wanted, but it doesn’t have to be like that any longer.

Long story short, coming to terms with 29 is one thing but the confidence that comes with it is a great way to help accept it. I’ll take those brief moments everyday, hoping it just gets to be more clear as time goes on.

Confidence is finding me, or maybe I am finding it?

Hilary xo

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8 thoughts on “Embracing Your Body As Is – How I Discovered Confidence In Swimsuit Shopping

  1. “Why am I torturing myself and forcing my body into something that just isn’t working for me. Why should I have to change my body just to suit it?” AMEN!! I’m 25 twice and you will find more JOY in life the more you except yourself as you ARE, and you will be surprised just how BEAUTIFUL that can be. Hugs & Blessings to you, (ALL of you!)

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